Saturday, October 10, 2009

Something I made

neck wrap
I was going to wear it on my head but since I cut my hair short in the back I think it best not to. It's a bit odd shaped but you can't tell with it around my neck. I'm thinking about putting buttons on it if I find the right ones.
Bit of news, I have an interview on Monday. Very excited and I pray it does go well. It's been awhile since I have had an interview so I'm a bit nervous.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009




Awww, the before picture makes me miss my hair :( but it's crazy how a simple hair cut can make you feel different! I love the lightness and how easy it is to style it. I went for the 1920s Bob.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

A Fat Rant.

This makes me feel more happier with myself. It's awesome how one person you don't know can make you feel confident.

I also posted this on Blue Black Hair

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Opinion Day and Questions

What is your opinion on coffee? Do you have a favorite kind, do you like the taste of it, do you hate it?

If anyone would care to share please do. I've heard many things about coffee, two years ago when I went into a walk-in clinic the doctor asked me if I drank coffee on a regular basis's.

"Well, not like the Gilmore girls but yes I do."

"Wha---? Okay, well how many cups do you have?"

"Depends, if I'm just waking up at a certain time it's 2-4. If I'm going to work then its 1-3"
Even my ex-boyfriend told me that it wasn't healthy for me. I didn't beleive him though. I asked him why and he would just go off to another subject. Then she goes to tell me that drinking so much can cause me to have short term memory. I do have short term memory on somethings but if I just think about it and put it aside and doing something also I forget till moments later. Yet now, they saw coffee is a good way to sway from Alzheimers disease.

Doctors change their minds as much as a woman can change her clothes in one day.

BUT can coffee keep me from losing weight? I'm curious. I went to bed about 4am last night because Nathan wasn't feeling to well and he was freezing. So he turned off the fan and I immediately became hot. I asked him if he could turn it on and he replied that he could go to the living room. He "tried" to stop me but I slept on the couch. Kind of depressing.

So, I go to bed but I can't sleep. Turn on the TV, Outer limits is on. Infomercials are on, one about the Adernal gland is on. Have you ever seen it? Its advertising Cylapril . I think their website and TV ad is a hoax. That's just me, I'll never trust anything on TV unless its in a well known store and I can return it.

The "adrenal fatigue" has been happening on and off for about two months. I feel so tired after sleeping for a long period of time (without meaning to). I used to just wake up at 8am, now its like 11:30-12:00. I feel like I've fallen into a sleeping pattern that Nathan has. Is that possible? Living with him has kind of changed how I operate and I've told him that but he either shrugs it off or forgets.

I am worried though.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

back from the dead

Today has been ridiculous. I woke up at 12pm after going to bed at 12am. Put on some coffee, had 2 1/2 cups, ate left overs from last night ( Mashed potatoes, peas and corn, and half of a tuna pattie).

My mother came by and gave me six frozen dinners for work and a pack of Hershey's dark chocolate.

Right now I'm boiling broccoli. I wish I didn't lead my head of lettuce go bad. I also forgot that I had grapes to I picked the goods ones and put them with the rest of frozen ones. Chicken Noodle soup that Nathan made is still in the fridge after a week. Urgh.... I will NOT touch it, if I made it different story.

I think I'll put some cheese on the broc and salt. I have some sweet tea left over from two days ago. I'll make more either late tonight or tomorrow.

Also had one of those frozen dinners. Stir fry rice and veggies.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Bed Rest

I've been sick for the past few days but that has not stopped me from doing some workouts. Just some little weight lifting and eating less/right.

I am sorry but I will be on best for a bit. I feel a little better but that's after bein drugged and sleeping all day. Anyway, till next time.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

What the...

Ok, I went to the next town over to join Nathan at the Roxy to watch "9". He had a roast beef sandwich from his lunch and I ate it. Ok.

I go to Goodwill and find two tops. I spent like an hour looking at stuff. I can't wait till I get smaller to wear some of the larges' and medium's again. You know? Some of the XL's I couldn't wear, I hate how some fashion labels measure their clothes. Ugh. When I was in the dressing room I over heard a woman talking about how the label's with one size fits All was sued. How in the hell do you get away with suing a "One Size Fits All" label? Who do you sue? Where do you come up with the idea? How does this work? Do you get money for it and if so why the hell did I not think of that? (Just kidding about me wanting to be the first.)

I also started to realize that it was kind of stupid to sue the One Size Fits All. I mean, if that person couldn't fit in a One Size Fits All then its kind of sad on their part. It's like over weight people suing freaking McDonald's. What the hell is their problem? Blaming a fast food chain on something they could just simply stop going to. Why not sue Kroger's for the things they carry or sue a donut store.

"I'm going to sue Kroger's for selling cookies and cream because I can't stop indulging in that product." or "I'm going to sue Krispy Creme and Donut Country just because I can't stop going."

I believe it's pathetic and a waste of time AND money to sue companies like that. It's a waste.

I have visited fast food chains less then two years ago. Every now and then I'll go to Arby's and get grilled chicken or Sonic just put Grilled chicken and wheat bread on their menu. A healthy cafe opened up at the mall after Startbucks dropped out and they sale panini's, salads, bagels, smoothies, and other stuff. I love getting the Tomato and basil panini, it's amaaaaazing. The food court is food court hell. Greasy pizza, Chinese food, and Greek food. All loaded with grease and high in fat. It also smells bad.

Anyway, all these thoughts came to me when this one woman was all about the One Size thing and the guy that was with her was agreeing just to make her stop. Do they even make One Size's for men? I wonder.


Course I'm trying to find the resource to the suing of the size issue. If I can't find and it and you can please post a link so I can read it and then I'll share it on my blog. If anyone reads the post. :) I'm going to post pictures of the dressing room photo shoot soon. That's another thing, I think when I go shopping or just to try on things I'll take pictures. YAY!

Walk the Line

Picture from my walk this morning at 6:45am.

Day two of walking. Jogged for about 2mins. Weight Watchers magazine has a 6wk chart for ones who have started walking/jogging. I'm on week 1 day 2 (kinda) I had miss read it so I walked for 45mins and jogged just 2 mins not repeat 7 times. Opps. Well I got day three. Then Week two is walk 2mins jog 2mins repeat 8 times for 32 mins on day one. Day two is walk 2mins jog 4mins repeat 5 times 30 min. Day three walk 2 and jog 5mins repeat 4 times. 33mins.
Did you also know that if you walk a brisk 30mins you burn 140 calories but if you jog for 30mins you burn 280? I know my body, I have to warm up to walking/jog, and I set places to start and stop. There is a fenced community by where I walk and when I reach the fence I start to either fast walk or jog. When I reach the end of the fence I pace myself and walk.
My butt is feeling it.
I was also reading in Weight Watcher's that a good way to get yourself motivated is to take a hobby out with you. I am a freelance photographer, have been for 7yrs and I do not have a slim camera so I just strap it around my back. I want take it with me all the time but every now and then, like if I go to the greenway I will.

Breakfast: Three eggs and a bowl of cereal.

Snack: grapes, dark choc.

Lunch: Going to my mothers so not sure.

Snack: grapes and ritz!

Dinner: I'm thinking of cooking that tomato basil noodles and cooking so broc.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

okay okay okay okay okay

Clean slate. Clean it all up.

I have committed to not snacking when I crave something but to start drinking water instead. My pee looks good :)

I have committed to getting up early and walk/running down my road. Today was the first day. I'll keep this up threw winter but if it rains I will make that a rest day.

I committed to only drinking 3 cups of coffee instead of 6.

I've committed to cooking at home unless I'm to tired then Nathan cooks.

So far so good. I plan on restartig my weight loss again after last years fail. Here we go.

Sunday, July 19, 2009


I've been tired and I went up a size in jeans. My ass is getting bigger and the other day I was putting in a new light to hang from the ceiling and my arm was caught between the couch and the wall. I couldn't move my elbow it. was. humiliting calling Nathan at his parents. I've been wanting a bike for months and I can't find one cheap, like cheapcheapcheap. Wal-Mart has a single speed beach cruiser for $85. I like the mens.

Off to mow my moms yard and wash my scalp. My head itches. Life makes me tired. Liek I said I've been waking up late and just feeling worn out. I miss jumping out of bed and getting the day started.

Oh! Something funny happened at work, when I WAS NOT THERE, Flava Flav came to Stones River Mall and made a apperance to our store. I'm never ever there when something cool happens. He had a PJ party at Club 527.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

do these glasses make my eyes look big?

I kind of regret buying the top pair of glasses. The glasses are from Forever 21, last in the bowl. So of course I was like "oh!oh!oh!"
I did make up for it by buying The Thing and Frankenstein on DVD at work for 7 bucks. I also emailed the CEO about some concerns with our store. She Replied.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

house elf

man, oh man, oh man. I'm flippin' tired. I spent all day. 9am till about an hour ago 7pm cleaning Nathan's parents house. I prayed/wished the other day that i could earn some extra money and i applied to many places around town again. well, i'm baby sitting in a few days with Nathan's sister and I just cleaned a two story house. Go me, Go me.

Athens, Texas and Chicago were awesome, you can read about on my other blog. Other than that, no much to report. Just going with the flow of things :)

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

22 woman 22

most recent picture from a few days ago. i feel sexy.
you hear that? sexy
i think everyone said write that in their blog& then dress yourself up& flaunt what the good lord or whatever you believe in gave you.
i'm SEXY. your SEXY. we're all SEXY.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

so many things to do, so little time. i haven't planned my 22 birthday but i do know i want a two layer pinnapple upside down cake with 22 number candles. i'm also trying to plan on this chicago trip& figuring out where i'd like to go. so far i have four places on my mind. i really really really want to go to the navy pier.
anyway, more hours at work this week, huzzah. 7 more days left till my burfday, huzzah. one more week left till i leave town, huzzah. plan on losing weight, no huzzah. just want stick. i'm in a funk, perhaps if i read something that will inspire me. help?

Sunday, May 31, 2009

eye twitched

i know when i get stressed my eye starts to twitched& i eat random things. i haven't been able to go to the admissions because my engine light is on& if i go i'll fail. i have money ready to go for my car tags just sitting in my wallet. all $80 dollars. i wish i could use that money for something else like food for the fridge or something cute for the trip.

i did score this amazing dress& tank top. Nathan bought my woven belt, all came from target. they have amazing plus size clothing there but the section it kind of small. figures. anyway the dress was about $26, belt $16& tank top on clearance was $11. all together it was about $60. my heart stopped when i handed the man my debit card& realized that was half my check right there. not even half, a little over half. so i told him to take off the belt, that's how Nathan got it.

last night we were going to grill out& have some steaks but we couldn't figure out the sides. so after about an hour& looking up the hotel we're going to be staying at in Chicago he said he didn't want to grill, that he wants to take me out on a date. a date! oh, we haven't been out in months! i got excited because this meant i could were one of my two outfits. so i wore my tank top with the belt& rolled up jeans with some sandals my mom gave me. i felt cute.

i ordered a long island ice tea w/ water& he got a corona with water. i told him since we're getting steak to just order for me. BEST STEAK EVER. the fries were awesome too but best steak ever. i eat everything, EVERYTHING, i was so hungry. :p the salad, the fries, the steak, water& tea. i was tipsy by then, that tea was good!

anyway, i had to go to the bathroom to let loose my belt haha! i need to start taking pictures of what i were so ya'll can see it. :)

oh, BTW, we went to Long Horn, never been, simply amazing& wonderful staff.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Breakfest: just two cups of coffee

Lunch: yum yum yum, steam brock, cheese& tom/basil. I'm boiling rice on the stove& will add the same with the mix. it taste soooo good.

lifted some weights& did crunchies while watching gilmore girls. i figured i would do each for the length of each episode. works!

Monday, May 18, 2009

good morning sexy!

-three eggs, two bagels with low fat cream cheese, bottle of water
- 90 cal ceral bar
- yoplait lowfat yogurt/ strawberry banana org.

plan on the high cal morning to burn energy

coffee is now down, might be having three cups. :) yum with coffee mate cream

edit---on my way to the coffee maker i twisted my knee...bad :(

not sure what i'll have for lunch so when i find out i'll post it.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

splish splash

so, i'm going to start my day off by dancing along with rockabilly, bubblegum music on pandora, then i'll clean the apartment after i had already cleaned it. boxes are everywhere after nathan went on a rampage to look for his dress shoes.

anyway... dance dance dance, clean clean clean, visit mom, walk darla& the fridge is looking bla.


Friday, May 15, 2009

jour occupé paresseux

i have not left the apartment at all today but i have cleaned a little. did the dishes, cleaned out the closet, cooked a pork chop for nathan, put on fake tattoos i got from work, made some pasta& watched gilmore girls. i'm on my period so i'm just feeling like a hermit but all in this chaos i forgot to cash my check but i had turned in a bank check to the company to make a direct deposit. yet what do i get when i go to work? a check, with no void on it. la de da...

anyway, i also redid mu other blog, since i've basically redid my life style i thought i would do what any other fashion chic girl would do& just blog about it. yay...

check it out! Blue Black Hair , maybe you'll get some ideas.



i found this really cool website btw... PLUS enjoy!

Thursday, May 14, 2009



geez, i'm so lame with keeping a deal that i make to myself. but i did change.... my hair.

more later, i gotta get ready for work. (sigh) soon i will be ready... i'll make myself be ready i'm just having a hard time finding support. yarg

Tuesday, March 24, 2009


so, i did not do what i had planned out today. instead of walking slash running on the greenway i helped my mother rearrange her house. like switching the living room into the eating area to the eating area into the living room. it's weird but the way Comcast put our cable it kind of made sense to make the switch. sabastine seems to like it since we always spend our time in the dining. our house is built weird anyway. my room was the garage, then den, turned into a master bedroom& bla bla bla. the 70s was a strange time.

anyway, i just got side tracked. i did hear that if you just keep moving& keep your mind on something it takes you away from eating more. which did help. i had some cottage cheese& that was around 2ish.

FIRST.... this morning i had another bowl of C.T.Crucnh with 2% milk. then after that nothing else. later i came back to the house at like 1ish& waited till i was positive i was hungry& fixed a bowl of cottage cheese. then after i did the laundry room (which BTW has not been cleaned since i graduated high school in 2006. after my father died in Dec of 1992 my mom's cleaning skills have slipped into I MUST KEEP EVERYTHING& this has taught me NOTHING).

she left the house around 4ish to take out the trash& she my aunt about some crushed coke cans to recycle. i kept about cleaning till i was for real hungry. i heated a left over mini slice of pizza (my last one for a while, so sick of pizza)& a muffin from a wedding shower a few days ago.

around dinner time like 6ish, i cooked us thin slice of steak (yum, i did very well this time, i for realz can cook steak now), boiled corn on the cob (the mini kind)& she cut up some potato's which i then boiled them& i made mashed potatoes with garlic salt. holy crap was it good& i'm completely satisfied. now more eating past 7pm anymore. that cake that Nathan bought is teasing me in the fridge but i'm not buying it. HA!

i'm freaking worn out though, all this busy work has just drained me of not wanting to do anything but i do think i put push in some sit ups. yeah i think i might. i'll just have to wait till Thursday to go to the greenway, i work tomorrow& i'd like to clean my room before i go in. i also need to fix some of my clothes to like kinda rockabilly slash Hot Topic look. i'm such a drag when it comes to clothes.

¡buonas noches!

p.s. i decorated Nathans apartment... shhhhh!

Monday, March 23, 2009

Lesson 4 - Body Roll - Bellydance with Rachel Brice

these are very useful!


i'm keeping a journal by my side on things that i have done. for starts i have found out my true weight& i'm not at all pleased. 250 pounds of pure loathe. i'm greatly disgusted with myself. it seems so weird to see that in front of my face. i feel it laugh at me. oh well. i started my day off pretty well, i stretched for 10 mins each for 10 to 20 secs. i worked my upper body first then went to my lower body. i have figured out that if i take deep breathes i will be able to do more.

i'm using my mom's Miami machine she order. i just did leg pumps because with the things that are pictured to do look slightly hard for me right now. i might break something at this weight. i then went to moving my upper body side to side with out moving my lower half& DAMN i sure do feel it in my sides. i then started to attempt belly rolls. those are extremely tougher then i remember.

i'm mixing belly dance exercises with regular exercises. it seems to be a little bit better then the grueling let's just exercise routine. i will be going on my walk tomorrow, i did not today. i have been neglecting my sweet cat so i spent the day with him. he just slept while i watch some tv& did my thing. less meow when i'm there.

forgive me for the errors in my typing, my spell check is not working due to the lack of wifi i'm receiving& i'm typing extremely fast to clean Nathans kitchen. i walked in& it smelled so bad. (eye roll)

more updates later!

things i did yesterday

so, i ate breakfast, a little bit high in fat i guess but i figured i needed it later on during the day. it was a stuffed pizza slice from Papa Murphy's. i broiled it in the oven because Nathan has yet to buy a microwave or a toaster. i settled my tummy& listened to some tribal belly dance music to get the groove working& then started on sit-ups. i did about 40 total. i then started working my lower body with out trying to move my upper body. it's really tougher now since i did this exercise in November of 08. (eye roll) i'm trying to picture that motivation i had when i was 16& sitting in the back seat of my aunt's car. we were eating Wendy's& i just saw them shovel the fries in there mouth.

around 2pm i went back to my house to pick up Darla& we went to the greenway. i ran slash walked about 3 miles. i felt great afterword's. then i fixed a salad with baby carrots, ranch dressing with a bacon taste& sharp Cheddar cheese. i guess that's OK. around 9:30pm i cooked a late dinner with Nathan. two pieces of chicken, cayenne pepper, Montreal chicken, salt, pepper& sage were added spices. i then cooked mashed potatoes. enough for the two of us. Nathan went out& bought a cake but i have yet to eat it. we have yet to eat it because i fell asleep while he was doing homework for a class.

this morning i ate a bowl of cinnamon toast crunch with 2% milk. nothing else so far.

now i'm gonna go back to my house, change cloths& work out. yes?

Sunday, March 22, 2009

holy ground

for the past four days i have been walking Darla, my new puppy for about 2mths, on the greenway. i have lost weight& i can feel it in my jeans but i'm so scared to jump on the scale. i'm trying to best i can to get back on track but i make up these lame excuse to put it off. but today, i'm heating up food so i want exercise on a empty stomach.

it's time. i'm renaming my site. instead of 70 pounds, which seems fare fetched for march now. i will lose twenty to 35 pounds. then we i get back from my trip from Texas& Illinos i will being the the massive weight blog with something better. i've made mentle notes& stick notes.

so hear we go. i'm about to eat my breakfest. i'll begin my day with stretching& then sit-ups. when i get home form my boyfriends i'll grab my trustful dog& hit the greenway.

i need tips, good foods to eat. i love meat meat meat& veggies. i'm big pasta lover so anything you throw my way would be awesome. i need all the help i can get because these trips are very important. going to two weddings, i want to look nice!

Thursday, February 12, 2009


home made smoothies are the way to go. nathan bought a blender show he stocked up on these amazing smoothies he created. no sugar just plan holy fruit.

i have been drinking more water& walking darla. i'll weigh in soon.

Monday, January 26, 2009

pump it up

dear readers,

so, i have kinda of detoxing for the past few days. i have not worn make up for two days& i have been drinking more water& less tea. mom bought this interesting machine& i think it's working, my legs are sore as can be.

i feel way better then i did a few weeks ago& i'm going to keep up the no make-up thing till i go to work because let's face it, i work in retail, i gotta look good. :)

anyway, i'm hungry so i'm gonna fix PB&J& have some water!


Friday, January 23, 2009


dear bloggers,

i will not be able to come on blogger freely anymore because my laptop has been struck with a virus& until i find the cd that come with the computer, i will have to wait till i see someone with a computer with internet.

i know how much ya'll random people love me. i'll be back asap.



Saturday, January 17, 2009


back on the water diet& with this crazy freezing arctic winds coming to middle tennessee i feel extremely lazy.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009


i have been hungry after 9pm everytime since like two weeks ago. i've kept it on the DL but it's driving me nuts. i often wake up craving sweets early in the morning.

i've been drinking water& eating on smaller plates to not eat a lot. so far so good. i'm just going with the flow.