Curvy Sexy Goodness

all the lovely simple things

2010-03-21T21:26:00.000-07:00

I just want to have and laugh all day long. maybe tear up a little of cat videos. eat Ben and Jerry's because I'm not worried. map out some things I want to do in life and not worry about the rest. because this is life and I'm doing the best I can and having fun.

Something I made

2009-10-10T11:42:00.000-07:00

I was going to wear it on my head but since I cut my hair short in the back I think it best not to. It's a bit odd shaped but you can't tell with it around my neck. I'm thinking about putting buttons on it if I find the right ones.

Bit of news, I have an interview on Monday. Very excited and I pray it does go well. It's been awhile since I have had an interview so I'm a bit nervous.

Ch-ch-ch-change

2009-10-07T12:12:00.000-07:00

Before

After

Awww, the before picture makes me miss my hair :( but it's crazy how a simple hair cut can make you feel different! I love the lightness and how easy it is to style it. I went for the 1920s Bob.

A Fat Rant.

2009-10-01T09:30:00.001-07:00

This makes me feel more happier with myself. It's awesome how one person you don't know can make you feel confident.

I also posted this on Blue Black Hair

Opinion Day and Questions

2009-09-27T10:11:00.000-07:00

What is your opinion on coffee? Do you have a favorite kind, do you like the taste of it, do you hate it?

If anyone would care to share please do. I've heard many things about coffee, two years ago when I went into a walk-in clinic the doctor asked me if I drank coffee on a regular basis's.

"Well, not like the Gilmore girls but yes I do."

"Wha---? Okay, well how many cups do you have?"

"Depends, if I'm just waking up at a certain time it's 2-4. If I'm going to work then its 1-3"

Even my ex-boyfriend told me that it wasn't healthy for me. I didn't beleive him though. I asked him why and he would just go off to another subject. Then she goes to tell me that drinking so much can cause me to have short term memory. I do have short term memory on somethings but if I just think about it and put it aside and doing something also I forget till moments later. Yet now, they saw coffee is a good way to sway from Alzheimers disease.

Doctors change their minds as much as a woman can change her clothes in one day.

BUT can coffee keep me from losing weight? I'm curious. I went to bed about 4am last night because Nathan wasn't feeling to well and he was freezing. So he turned off the fan and I immediately became hot. I asked him if he could turn it on and he replied that he could go to the living room. He "tried" to stop me but I slept on the couch. Kind of depressing.

So, I go to bed but I can't sleep. Turn on the TV, Outer limits is on. Infomercials are on, one about the Adernal gland is on. Have you ever seen it? Its advertising Cylapril . I think their website and TV ad is a hoax. That's just me, I'll never trust anything on TV unless its in a well known store and I can return it.

The "adrenal fatigue" has been happening on and off for about two months. I feel so tired after sleeping for a long period of time (without meaning to). I used to just wake up at 8am, now its like 11:30-12:00. I feel like I've fallen into a sleeping pattern that Nathan has. Is that possible? Living with him has kind of changed how I operate and I've told him that but he either shrugs it off or forgets.

I am worried though.

back from the dead

2009-09-26T16:38:00.000-07:00

Today has been ridiculous. I woke up at 12pm after going to bed at 12am. Put on some coffee, had 2 1/2 cups, ate left overs from last night ( Mashed potatoes, peas and corn, and half of a tuna pattie).

My mother came by and gave me six frozen dinners for work and a pack of Hershey's dark chocolate.

Right now I'm boiling broccoli. I wish I didn't lead my head of lettuce go bad. I also forgot that I had grapes to I picked the goods ones and put them with the rest of frozen ones. Chicken Noodle soup that Nathan made is still in the fridge after a week. Urgh.... I will NOT touch it, if I made it different story.

I think I'll put some cheese on the broc and salt. I have some sweet tea left over from two days ago. I'll make more either late tonight or tomorrow.

Also had one of those frozen dinners. Stir fry rice and veggies.

Bed Rest

2009-09-17T16:39:00.000-07:00

I've been sick for the past few days but that has not stopped me from doing some workouts. Just some little weight lifting and eating less/right.

I am sorry but I will be on best for a bit. I feel a little better but that's after bein drugged and sleeping all day. Anyway, till next time.

What the...

2009-09-09T17:45:00.000-07:00

Ok, I went to the next town over to join Nathan at the Roxy to watch "9". He had a roast beef sandwich from his lunch and I ate it. Ok.

I go to Goodwill and find two tops. I spent like an hour looking at stuff. I can't wait till I get smaller to wear some of the larges' and medium's again. You know? Some of the XL's I couldn't wear, I hate how some fashion labels measure their clothes. Ugh. When I was in the dressing room I over heard a woman talking about how the label's with one size fits All was sued. How in the hell do you get away with suing a "One Size Fits All" label? Who do you sue? Where do you come up with the idea? How does this work? Do you get money for it and if so why the hell did I not think of that? (Just kidding about me wanting to be the first.)

I also started to realize that it was kind of stupid to sue the One Size Fits All. I mean, if that person couldn't fit in a One Size Fits All then its kind of sad on their part. It's like over weight people suing freaking McDonald's. What the hell is their problem? Blaming a fast food chain on something they could just simply stop going to. Why not sue Kroger's for the things they carry or sue a donut store.

"I'm going to sue Kroger's for selling cookies and cream because I can't stop indulging in that product." or "I'm going to sue Krispy Creme and Donut Country just because I can't stop going."

I believe it's pathetic and a waste of time AND money to sue companies like that. It's a waste.

I have visited fast food chains less then two years ago. Every now and then I'll go to Arby's and get grilled chicken or Sonic just put Grilled chicken and wheat bread on their menu. A healthy cafe opened up at the mall after Startbucks dropped out and they sale panini's, salads, bagels, smoothies, and other stuff. I love getting the Tomato and basil panini, it's amaaaaazing. The food court is food court hell. Greasy pizza, Chinese food, and Greek food. All loaded with grease and high in fat. It also smells bad.

Anyway, all these thoughts came to me when this one woman was all about the One Size thing and the guy that was with her was agreeing just to make her stop. Do they even make One Size's for men? I wonder.

-----update----

Course I'm trying to find the resource to the suing of the size issue. If I can't find and it and you can please post a link so I can read it and then I'll share it on my blog. If anyone reads the post. :) I'm going to post pictures of the dressing room photo shoot soon. That's another thing, I think when I go shopping or just to try on things I'll take pictures. YAY!

Walk the Line

2009-09-09T08:06:00.000-07:00

Picture from my walk this morning at 6:45am.

Day two of walking. Jogged for about 2mins. Weight Watchers magazine has a 6wk chart for ones who have started walking/jogging. I'm on week 1 day 2 (kinda) I had miss read it so I walked for 45mins and jogged just 2 mins not repeat 7 times. Opps. Well I got day three. Then Week two is walk 2mins jog 2mins repeat 8 times for 32 mins on day one. Day two is walk 2mins jog 4mins repeat 5 times 30 min. Day three walk 2 and jog 5mins repeat 4 times. 33mins.

Did you also know that if you walk a brisk 30mins you burn 140 calories but if you jog for 30mins you burn 280? I know my body, I have to warm up to walking/jog, and I set places to start and stop. There is a fenced community by where I walk and when I reach the fence I start to either fast walk or jog. When I reach the end of the fence I pace myself and walk.

My butt is feeling it.

I was also reading in Weight Watcher's that a good way to get yourself motivated is to take a hobby out with you. I am a freelance photographer, have been for 7yrs and I do not have a slim camera so I just strap it around my back. I want take it with me all the time but every now and then, like if I go to the greenway I will.

Breakfast: Three eggs and a bowl of cereal.

Snack: grapes, dark choc.

Lunch: Going to my mothers so not sure.

Snack: grapes and ritz!

Dinner: I'm thinking of cooking that tomato basil noodles and cooking so broc.

okay okay okay okay okay

2009-09-08T18:08:00.000-07:00

Clean slate. Clean it all up.

I have committed to not snacking when I crave something but to start drinking water instead. My pee looks good :)

I have committed to getting up early and walk/running down my road. Today was the first day. I'll keep this up threw winter but if it rains I will make that a rest day.

I committed to only drinking 3 cups of coffee instead of 6.

I've committed to cooking at home unless I'm to tired then Nathan cooks.

So far so good. I plan on restartig my weight loss again after last years fail. Here we go.

life

2009-07-19T08:16:00.000-07:00

I've been tired and I went up a size in jeans. My ass is getting bigger and the other day I was putting in a new light to hang from the ceiling and my arm was caught between the couch and the wall. I couldn't move my elbow it. was. humiliting calling Nathan at his parents. I've been wanting a bike for months and I can't find one cheap, like cheapcheapcheap. Wal-Mart has a single speed beach cruiser for $85. I like the mens.

Off to mow my moms yard and wash my scalp. My head itches. Life makes me tired. Liek I said I've been waking up late and just feeling worn out. I miss jumping out of bed and getting the day started.

Oh! Something funny happened at work, when I WAS NOT THERE, Flava Flav came to Stones River Mall and made a apperance to our store. I'm never ever there when something cool happens. He had a PJ party at Club 527.

do these glasses make my eyes look big?

2009-07-07T06:39:00.000-07:00

I kind of regret buying the top pair of glasses. The glasses are from Forever 21, last in the bowl. So of course I was like "oh!oh!oh!"

I did make up for it by buying The Thing and Frankenstein on DVD at work for 7 bucks. I also emailed the CEO about some concerns with our store. She Replied.

house elf

2009-06-25T17:57:00.000-07:00

man, oh man, oh man. I'm flippin' tired. I spent all day. 9am till about an hour ago 7pm cleaning Nathan's parents house. I prayed/wished the other day that i could earn some extra money and i applied to many places around town again. well, i'm baby sitting in a few days with Nathan's sister and I just cleaned a two story house. Go me, Go me.

Athens, Texas and Chicago were awesome, you can read about on my other blog. Other than that, no much to report. Just going with the flow of things :)

22 woman 22

2009-06-09T08:38:00.001-07:00

most recent picture from a few days ago. i feel sexy.

you hear that? sexy

i think everyone said write that in their blog& then dress yourself up& flaunt what the good lord or whatever you believe in gave you.

i'm SEXY. your SEXY. we're all SEXY.

2009-06-02T08:32:00.000-07:00

so many things to do, so little time. i haven't planned my 22 birthday but i do know i want a two layer pinnapple upside down cake with 22 number candles. i'm also trying to plan on this chicago trip& figuring out where i'd like to go. so far i have four places on my mind. i really really really want to go to the navy pier.

anyway, more hours at work this week, huzzah. 7 more days left till my burfday, huzzah. one more week left till i leave town, huzzah. plan on losing weight, no huzzah. just want stick. i'm in a funk, perhaps if i read something that will inspire me. help?

eye twitched

2009-05-31T09:13:00.000-07:00

i know when i get stressed my eye starts to twitched& i eat random things. i haven't been able to go to the admissions because my engine light is on& if i go i'll fail. i have money ready to go for my car tags just sitting in my wallet. all $80 dollars. i wish i could use that money for something else like food for the fridge or something cute for the trip.

i did score this amazing dress& tank top. Nathan bought my woven belt, all came from target. they have amazing plus size clothing there but the section it kind of small. figures. anyway the dress was about $26, belt $16& tank top on clearance was $11. all together it was about $60. my heart stopped when i handed the man my debit card& realized that was half my check right there. not even half, a little over half. so i told him to take off the belt, that's how Nathan got it.

last night we were going to grill out& have some steaks but we couldn't figure out the sides. so after about an hour& looking up the hotel we're going to be staying at in Chicago he said he didn't want to grill, that he wants to take me out on a date. a date! oh, we haven't been out in months! i got excited because this meant i could were one of my two outfits. so i wore my tank top with the belt& rolled up jeans with some sandals my mom gave me. i felt cute.

i ordered a long island ice tea w/ water& he got a corona with water. i told him since we're getting steak to just order for me. BEST STEAK EVER. the fries were awesome too but best steak ever. i eat everything, EVERYTHING, i was so hungry. :p the salad, the fries, the steak, water& tea. i was tipsy by then, that tea was good!

anyway, i had to go to the bathroom to let loose my belt haha! i need to start taking pictures of what i were so ya'll can see it. :)

oh, BTW, we went to Long Horn, never been, simply amazing& wonderful staff.

2009-05-28T12:06:00.000-07:00

Breakfest: just two cups of coffee

Lunch: yum yum yum, steam brock, cheese& tom/basil. I'm boiling rice on the stove& will add the same with the mix. it taste soooo good.

lifted some weights& did crunchies while watching gilmore girls. i figured i would do each for the length of each episode. works!

good morning sexy!

2009-05-18T08:25:00.000-07:00

breakfest--9:30
-shower
-three eggs, two bagels with low fat cream cheese, bottle of water
- 90 cal ceral bar
- yoplait lowfat yogurt/ strawberry banana org.

plan on the high cal morning to burn energy

coffee is now down, might be having three cups. :) yum with coffee mate cream

edit---on my way to the coffee maker i twisted my knee...bad :(

not sure what i'll have for lunch so when i find out i'll post it.

splish splash

2009-05-17T10:02:00.000-07:00

so, i'm going to start my day off by dancing along with rockabilly, bubblegum music on pandora, then i'll clean the apartment after i had already cleaned it. boxes are everywhere after nathan went on a rampage to look for his dress shoes.

anyway... dance dance dance, clean clean clean, visit mom, walk darla& the fridge is looking bla.

salut!

jour occupé paresseux

2009-05-15T16:53:00.000-07:00

i have not left the apartment at all today but i have cleaned a little. did the dishes, cleaned out the closet, cooked a pork chop for nathan, put on fake tattoos i got from work, made some pasta& watched gilmore girls. i'm on my period so i'm just feeling like a hermit but all in this chaos i forgot to cash my check but i had turned in a bank check to the company to make a direct deposit. yet what do i get when i go to work? a check, with no void on it. la de da...

anyway, i also redid mu other blog, since i've basically redid my life style i thought i would do what any other fashion chic girl would do& just blog about it. yay...

check it out! Blue Black Hair , maybe you'll get some ideas.

salut!

---edit----

i found this really cool website btw... PLUS enjoy!

BAH!

2009-05-14T13:13:00.000-07:00

I'MA SLACKER& A LOSER!!!

geez, i'm so lame with keeping a deal that i make to myself. but i did change.... my hair.

more later, i gotta get ready for work. (sigh) soon i will be ready... i'll make myself be ready i'm just having a hard time finding support. yarg

rearrange

2009-03-24T18:01:00.000-07:00

so, i did not do what i had planned out today. instead of walking slash running on the greenway i helped my mother rearrange her house. like switching the living room into the eating area to the eating area into the living room. it's weird but the way Comcast put our cable it kind of made sense to make the switch. sabastine seems to like it since we always spend our time in the dining. our house is built weird anyway. my room was the garage, then den, turned into a master bedroom& bla bla bla. the 70s was a strange time.

anyway, i just got side tracked. i did hear that if you just keep moving& keep your mind on something it takes you away from eating more. which did help. i had some cottage cheese& that was around 2ish.

FIRST.... this morning i had another bowl of C.T.Crucnh with 2% milk. then after that nothing else. later i came back to the house at like 1ish& waited till i was positive i was hungry& fixed a bowl of cottage cheese. then after i did the laundry room (which BTW has not been cleaned since i graduated high school in 2006. after my father died in Dec of 1992 my mom's cleaning skills have slipped into I MUST KEEP EVERYTHING& this has taught me NOTHING).

she left the house around 4ish to take out the trash& she my aunt about some crushed coke cans to recycle. i kept about cleaning till i was for real hungry. i heated a left over mini slice of pizza (my last one for a while, so sick of pizza)& a muffin from a wedding shower a few days ago.

around dinner time like 6ish, i cooked us thin slice of steak (yum, i did very well this time, i for realz can cook steak now), boiled corn on the cob (the mini kind)& she cut up some potato's which i then boiled them& i made mashed potatoes with garlic salt. holy crap was it good& i'm completely satisfied. now more eating past 7pm anymore. that cake that Nathan bought is teasing me in the fridge but i'm not buying it. HA!

i'm freaking worn out though, all this busy work has just drained me of not wanting to do anything but i do think i put push in some sit ups. yeah i think i might. i'll just have to wait till Thursday to go to the greenway, i work tomorrow& i'd like to clean my room before i go in. i also need to fix some of my clothes to like kinda rockabilly slash Hot Topic look. i'm such a drag when it comes to clothes.

¡buonas noches!

p.s. i decorated Nathans apartment... shhhhh!

Lesson 4 - Body Roll - Bellydance with Rachel Brice

2009-03-23T17:38:00.001-07:00

these are very useful!

journal

2009-03-23T17:24:00.000-07:00

i'm keeping a journal by my side on things that i have done. for starts i have found out my true weight& i'm not at all pleased. 250 pounds of pure loathe. i'm greatly disgusted with myself. it seems so weird to see that in front of my face. i feel it laugh at me. oh well. i started my day off pretty well, i stretched for 10 mins each for 10 to 20 secs. i worked my upper body first then went to my lower body. i have figured out that if i take deep breathes i will be able to do more.

i'm using my mom's Miami machine she order. i just did leg pumps because with the things that are pictured to do look slightly hard for me right now. i might break something at this weight. i then went to moving my upper body side to side with out moving my lower half& DAMN i sure do feel it in my sides. i then started to attempt belly rolls. those are extremely tougher then i remember.

i'm mixing belly dance exercises with regular exercises. it seems to be a little bit better then the grueling let's just exercise routine. i will be going on my walk tomorrow, i did not today. i have been neglecting my sweet cat so i spent the day with him. he just slept while i watch some tv& did my thing. less meow when i'm there.

forgive me for the errors in my typing, my spell check is not working due to the lack of wifi i'm receiving& i'm typing extremely fast to clean Nathans kitchen. i walked in& it smelled so bad. (eye roll)

more updates later!

things i did yesterday

2009-03-23T09:54:00.000-07:00

so, i ate breakfast, a little bit high in fat i guess but i figured i needed it later on during the day. it was a stuffed pizza slice from Papa Murphy's. i broiled it in the oven because Nathan has yet to buy a microwave or a toaster. i settled my tummy& listened to some tribal belly dance music to get the groove working& then started on sit-ups. i did about 40 total. i then started working my lower body with out trying to move my upper body. it's really tougher now since i did this exercise in November of 08. (eye roll) i'm trying to picture that motivation i had when i was 16& sitting in the back seat of my aunt's car. we were eating Wendy's& i just saw them shovel the fries in there mouth.

around 2pm i went back to my house to pick up Darla& we went to the greenway. i ran slash walked about 3 miles. i felt great afterword's. then i fixed a salad with baby carrots, ranch dressing with a bacon taste& sharp Cheddar cheese. i guess that's OK. around 9:30pm i cooked a late dinner with Nathan. two pieces of chicken, cayenne pepper, Montreal chicken, salt, pepper& sage were added spices. i then cooked mashed potatoes. enough for the two of us. Nathan went out& bought a cake but i have yet to eat it. we have yet to eat it because i fell asleep while he was doing homework for a class.

this morning i ate a bowl of cinnamon toast crunch with 2% milk. nothing else so far.

now i'm gonna go back to my house, change cloths& work out. yes?

holy ground

2009-03-22T09:09:00.000-07:00

for the past four days i have been walking Darla, my new puppy for about 2mths, on the greenway. i have lost weight& i can feel it in my jeans but i'm so scared to jump on the scale. i'm trying to best i can to get back on track but i make up these lame excuse to put it off. but today, i'm heating up food so i want exercise on a empty stomach.

it's time. i'm renaming my site. instead of 70 pounds, which seems fare fetched for march now. i will lose twenty to 35 pounds. then we i get back from my trip from Texas& Illinos i will being the the massive weight blog with something better. i've made mentle notes& stick notes.

so hear we go. i'm about to eat my breakfest. i'll begin my day with stretching& then sit-ups. when i get home form my boyfriends i'll grab my trustful dog& hit the greenway.

i need tips, good foods to eat. i love meat meat meat& veggies. i'm big pasta lover so anything you throw my way would be awesome. i need all the help i can get because these trips are very important. going to two weddings, i want to look nice!

yum

2009-02-12T22:35:00.000-08:00

home made smoothies are the way to go. nathan bought a blender show he stocked up on these amazing smoothies he created. no sugar just plan holy fruit.

i have been drinking more water& walking darla. i'll weigh in soon.

pump it up

2009-01-26T14:55:00.000-08:00

dear readers,

so, i have kinda of detoxing for the past few days. i have not worn make up for two days& i have been drinking more water& less tea. mom bought this interesting machine& i think it's working, my legs are sore as can be.

i feel way better then i did a few weeks ago& i'm going to keep up the no make-up thing till i go to work because let's face it, i work in retail, i gotta look good. :)

anyway, i'm hungry so i'm gonna fix PB&J& have some water!

salut

attention

2009-01-23T18:21:00.001-08:00

dear bloggers,

i will not be able to come on blogger freely anymore because my laptop has been struck with a virus& until i find the cd that come with the computer, i will have to wait till i see someone with a computer with internet.

i know how much ya'll random people love me. i'll be back asap.

love,

karen

swim

2009-01-17T12:13:00.000-08:00

back on the water diet& with this crazy freezing arctic winds coming to middle tennessee i feel extremely lazy.

trip

2009-01-13T23:28:00.000-08:00

i have been hungry after 9pm everytime since like two weeks ago. i've kept it on the DL but it's driving me nuts. i often wake up craving sweets early in the morning.

i've been drinking water& eating on smaller plates to not eat a lot. so far so good. i'm just going with the flow.

update

2008-12-30T00:19:00.000-08:00

so, i figured it was time for an update before the new year. i have no done much per say in weight lose. mtsu gym is closed& i shall not be returning in the spring. i'll be attending motlow yet again but i will be going at the same time nathan does. very nice indeed.

the rush holiday season is over for a bit in the mall or is about to be over with. thank goodness but this means lesser hours for me to work. increasing my chance on trying to find either another job or a 2nd job.

nathan is moving out of his parents house hopefully son& this mean's, well, i'll be staying out there a bit more often then home. :) i on the other hand is stuck living at home, which makes my ego go down further south.

my hair is finally starting to get longer. if i lower my head or raise my breast the tips of my hair hit them. my goal is past the boobs.

picture above is my current status of what i look like. it was taken at the jack daniel's distillery, about an hour drive from my home town. i am happy& right now comfy. i'm still going for the goal but i am happy. nathan keeps me in check& always tell's me, "my girl looks so beautiful." or pretty& sexy. i like the sexy one.

"mmmhmm, sexy."

update

2008-11-10T22:45:00.000-08:00

i still weigh the same& things have been utterly busy since there is only 3 more weeks of school left. urgh... i feel awful for not doing anything for the past two weeks.....

fail. epic fail.

burn baby burn

2008-10-23T18:28:00.000-07:00

i stayed on one machine for 30mins& lost 342 calories. i'm proud of myself! yaya!

i haven't weight myself today& i probably want tonight. i'm going to work on my tribal costume for nov 1. i'm about done with my bra then my mother& i will have to tackle the skirt.

the food i had today:

BREAKFEST
two packets of apple oatmeal
glass of milk

LUNCH
apples& ramen noodles

SNACK
peanut butter cracker pack& sierra mist

DINNER
ooooooh boy
chicken
cream corn
apples
& home made mashed potatoes
with half a glass of milk

(no 2nds) still hungry too.... :( i love eating my moms 2nds!!!!

off to get my car fixed! good night!

a bond that never breaks but cracks

2008-10-21T23:07:00.000-07:00

so, after a crazy two weeks, which doesn't really seem that long ago, my sister& i are talking again. things became crazy& i have no idea what happened but all is good. she become my work out buddy last night& i burned a total of 192 cals. i always fall short of my goal of 200 cals when i work out. but maybe working out my lower body on the exercise equipment helped. i worked on my legs, arms& stomach area.

tomorrow i have a busy day. i missed my art ed. class& have to turn in my journal to my teacher. problem is i have know idea what her office hours are. gah.

anyway, i had two peanut butter sandwiches for breakfest with a 2% milk& when i came home i picked up an orange cream soda, had the rest of a small chicken sandwhich with heated swiss cheese& mustard. after class, i came home to change& my mom brought home lasanga, rolls& cinamon rolls. gah

after worked out i had some chips at sabrina's house in a bowl, apple juice& a tiny piece of turkey on wheat, with tomato. later i came home& cheated... i had some cake. WAH!

anyway, i'm so sore. i just lifed some more weights before i hit the sack& wake up yet again to do my homework. rawr.

butter my butt& call me a bisket

2008-10-21T10:26:00.000-07:00

http://news.yahoo.com/s/usnews/20081020/ts_usnews/10thingsthefoodindustrydoesntwantyoutoknow

shocking

oh gawd

2008-10-19T09:30:00.000-07:00

so, i really really really need structure in working out. i've got eating well sized meals right, if you don't count the bbq, coleslaw& baked beans i had at the motorcycle rally at bumpus yesterday. hey, i earned it, i skipped breakfest to go riding for a good course but man, my ass was hurting by the time we got back. i then had corn bread& white beans provided by nathans mother. it was wonderful. his sister asked me what i wanted from the store& all day i kept thinking of a kit-kat bar.

i did slip up though. i had a 410 cal apple pie from a gas station on our way back from the poker run. i was so hungry& i also had a dr. pepper. EEEEH! bad bad bad.

right now i'm cooking some pork with lemon pepper& heating up some tatters. :) i thought i'd make lunch while moms at church.

105.9 the rock

2008-10-16T15:54:00.000-07:00

so, i figure it's about damn time for an update. i didn't do much in working out this week besides drinking water& eating less. not having any money solves this problem. the rec was closed during fall break, which sucked.

alas, i was let out of my 2D class todays early, so i went home& changed& headed to the gym. i didn't stay to long, being by myself kinda sucks but i'll get over it. sarah had work till 5 but later texted me saying she was doing over time, i guess.

all together i have lost 185 calories for today. plus, i lifted weights, but not with my arms. i feel out numbered with all the "hot" guys in the weight lifting room. they all think their so buff with their toned arms& ripped chest. (mmmhm) nathan is nothing like them, he said he used to be but since he moved here to tennessee he stopped. its because in Texas, they care more about football& jesus than anything else. in growing murfreesboro, we care more about basketball& jesus than anything else. i care more about baseball& wicca& art& photography. this doesn't flow with my mom very well. i grew up in church of christ& to her that a family member is wiccan would be an up roar. SOOOO, its on the DL.

but, nathan, to me, is perfect. every inch of him is comfort to me& i feel very secure. i love it!

so, today i worked out for about an hour& 30 mins. i think? i'm not sure how much i weigh, i'm a little bit affraid to look.

while sitting in my math class i came up with a chart:

240 > 170 = 70
235 > 170 = 65
230 > 170 = 60
225 > 170 = 55
220 > 170 = 50
215 > 170 = 45
210 > 170 = 40
205 > 170 = 35
200 > 170 = 30
195 > 170 = 25
190 > 170 = 20
185 > 170 = 15
180 > 170 = 10
175 > 170 = 5
170 = 170

green is what i've lost, purple is were i'm at& red is my goal weight for june 9, 2009 or before. i want to be hawt when i hit 22.

YEAAH!

2008-10-11T08:44:00.001-07:00

so, i just weighed myself on my stay at home scale& i have lost 5 more pounds! yesh yesh yesh! thats 10 pounds total

no more 240&235 but i'm 230! ha! in your face cookies, ice cream& fried chicken. ummm fried chicken.

anyway, on my other blog (riders on the storm) i put how i wanted to have a 32 oz steak from santa fe& be a member on their great wall of one of the people that eat the whole thing, two sides& a large drink. i might die so i think i will do soemthing else.

haha!

gawd, i feel great right now. i have 60 more pounds to go. yaaaaaaay!

URGH!

2008-10-11T07:56:00.000-07:00

so, sarah& i went to the gym last night& i'm new to my college& didn't know the hours of the gym. well it closed at 8.... damnit.

anyway, i have bad news. i lost a friend of 5yrs because we are two different people. she was like a sister two me& i want her to be apart of this but she just got tired of caring. i ened it last night because its not only our age difference& the fact that i'm older than her. its because she doesn't know what she wants& is getting out of control, i think. i'm going to school to be an art teacher& i don't need, hey wanna smoke pot? or hey wanna stay out till the butt crack of dawn.? i mean, i stopped doing that slowly after my first break up when i was 19. i'll be 22 years old next year. i'm learning from my mistakes& making a change. she isn't. i mean, she's only 18 but still.

i don't need that in my life. i can't be held back. there's more to this crazy story but i'm not going to make a huge deal about it. so, i'm going step away& move on. i'm going to focus on my life; losing weight, getting more hours at work, trying to see my boyfriend, do my homework& be one of the grandchildren in my family to graduate college. there are only few who have. i want to be one of them.

anyway, more info about me:

i'm karen, i'm born& raised in middle tennessee (murfreesboro is the center of tennessee). i'm an only child but some where out there i have a red headed step brother.

i love motorcycles! not the speed bikes but nice sexy motorcycles& sitting behind the man you love. its a great feeling being behind a bike, you feel free.

i have a wonderful supportive boyfriend who loves who i am& what i look like but understand what i want. i haven't told him that i love him but i really do.

i work at hottopic& have been there for about a year. i was a temp during the holidays for christmas in 07& came back hired part time permanently this year in june. so, yay! i'm trying to rebuild my resume because last year i was a careless person who walked out of a job. i have my reasons!

i'm back living with my mom!

i think the whole weight gain problem started at a very young age. i lost my father when 5 days before christmas. my mom had a hard time dealing with the lose so there was always junk food. i was teased at school for the clothes i wore, my glasses,& the slight fat i had on me.

when i was 15, i was on vacation with my aunt, uncle& younger cousin. we were eating wendy's when i looked around me& saw them shoving fries down their mouths. it made me sick so i didn't eat the rest of my food. i got home& started to work out the best i could. by my senior year of high school i was at my lowest weight, 165. stayed that way till the beginning of college in 2006.

this year, i came to my highest at 240. i have lost 5-10 pounds& right now i'm slightly at 235. its a hard road to go down on& i'm so ashamed of myself for this happening to me.

anyway, i will lose 70 pounds& get back in my size 12/13 jeans. i'll be happier again. :)

i also used to be a smoker& i haven't since april but i did have one yesterday because i was stressing out. i do drink beer but i have cut back to every month or so. i had a 6pack this month so no more till the end of the year!

two-three days a week for 4-6 hours

2008-10-09T18:55:00.000-07:00

today, Sarah& i went to the Rec Center on our campus to start working out. i had asked her if she would like to be my work out buddy. this way i will feel support to lose the weight i gained.

we first started out playing racket ball, which i had no idea how to play but we got our hearts pumping& legs jumping. we then took a 8min break& drank some water& went up stairs. we got on the puke-ta-lip-tush. the thing that makes you run in place that burns fat in your but& legs. anyway, i burned 100 cals. we went down stairs again to the weight room& check out the different things. i did a bunch for about 20 reps each on 155 pounds. i'm suprised i can still do 155 pounds. i can still feel the burn in my legs& arms.

we came home& eat ramen& half a glass of milk. before we went i had peanut butter w/ banna& a apple with water for breakfest& when i came home i eat a smal hamburger with swiss cheese, lettuce& mustard.

well, i'm going to lift some weight i have in my room& take a shower.